A realization of a long-time dream of mine came about this last weekend, we traded some work for this little beauty. It's in pretty good condition and we can attach our propane tank to it in an emergency. Notice how I have the microwave oven on it? I think this is so like our lives, a juxtaposition of antique and modern.
What I am pondering on right now is how God works. We have something really big we need an answer to, and we need it really soon. Yet God has been teaching me from Isa.40.31 'waiting on the Lord'. When I saw the eagles last week the scripture came to my mind again, 'they shall mount up with wings as eagles...they shall renew their strength'. One definition of renew is changing for the better, or growing up. The Word teaches that as we wait we grow stronger, yet I don't feel stronger, I feel more stressed. My strength seems at an end. But here is the mystery, Paul said he gloried in his own weakness so that God's greatness would be made clear. Unmet expectations of the past cause me to not like being weak and dependent on someone else, even God. Long ago I worked through forgiveness and I guess now is the time to let the emotions come to the surface and be healed. Did I mention, I don't like letting my emotions showing either. I guess part of growing up is becoming incredibly vulnerable, or weak so to speak, and in this weakness I will be renewed, or grow stronger. It defies logic.
Has God not met my expectations? You bet! I don't know why things happen the way they do, but this I know, I press on to know and understand Him more because He is, and He is a rewarder of those who seek him. He is all justice and all mercy. If I can't trust God, then all that I have lived for has no meaning.
We have a mass of daffodils planted at the corner of our little farm and I set out one day to get a picture of them. From a distance they looked to be scatter planted but as I got closer I could see that they were all in rows and the Lord reminded me that from my perspective my life looked chaotic but from His perspective it had order. Therefore, my declaration must be that God's word is truth, no matter what I see, and He is an awesome God. I shall partake of His nature, and someday I will know my life from His perspective. I wait patiently for His perspective to be made clear, and to know His will for our lives; and in the meantime, I will absolutely adore His little gift to me, my stove.
The eagle and vultures nest on the slew bank. They come back every year and are fun to watch.The nutria are NOT so fun to watch. They come up in the fall to eat the apples and will chase you.
ReplyDeleteThis is the first year we have seen the eagles. Bob has seen the nutria but I haven't seen them in the orchard. Maybe the dogs keep them away. I got a couple pictures of a beaver when the water was very high. Unfortunately, I was in such a hurry to get his picture I didn't wait until the camera had focused completely, but you can clearly see he is a beaver. I was down on the path and he was only about 20 feet from me. I was a bit cautious because I have heard that they are fierce as well.
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